This post has the potential for becoming quite long, mostly because I’m putting off driving to my new appointment until I’ve finished it but more meaningfully because there’s been a lot of times in the last week or so that I’ve made a mental note to mention this or that in a post.

Last Saturday; Will be fondly remembered as one of those few days where I can only remember 5% of the time because of something other than excessive alcohol. Friday night I felt a little off, off enough to suggest to Trina that perhaps we shouldn’t go to our restaurant on Saturday, I guess in hindsight me declining to go out for mexican food and beer should have rung alarms. Pre-Dawn saturday ( I know, I didn’t know they still made saturday that early! ) I discovered why I was feeling off when I started a marathon series of sprints from bedroom to bathroom to be ill and stuff. I dont recall most of the afternoon, I remember listening to but not watching Dr Who, but by 10:00pm or so I stopped drinking and just let my stomach rumble on empty. Sunday was dizzy and woozy and not so pleasant, which led to monday being one big headache and roomspin. No work! Back Tuesday though and aside from a few dizzy spells I’ve been fine since.

Except for the dreams.. I think I’ve managed to invent myself a spider specifically to infest my dreams. I’ve dreamt of this monster a few times now, and while sometimes I’ve been able to identify it as a dream and deal with it ( fire works ) the feeling of it’s very strong web pulling at my face is unpleasant enough that I wish it would go away for good.

About the Thing; There are people that know there’s a thing I’m waiting for and have been for a few weeks. The process is still going ahead and things are looking moderately pleasing, especially considering it’s my first such undertaking in over 4 years. I received a phone call about it yesterday just to reassure that everything is going ahead, not really on schedule but from what I can see this is a far more formalised approach than I’ve experienced before.

Discount Books! I was at eastland with Trina yesterday and saw one of those middle-of-the-courtyard discount book sales. I picked up the coolest book ever, it’s called ‘The Complete Guide to Prehistoric Life’ it’s basically ‘Walking with Dinosaurs’, ‘Walking with Beasts’ and ‘Walking with Monsters’ all rolled into one tasty hardcore volume that is surprisingly not aimed at the younger audience, not too much anyway!
About something different; A real life event and a few TV-land depictions of similar events have stirred up some long buried memories and let me mull them over. For like.. 90% of you this has nothing to do with you and don’t worry. For the other 10%… How the fuck could you possibly do that? That you would vent like that at someone with that personality type at that age is reprehensible. Obviously you weren’t at the top of your game at the time but your response was unwarranted, unprovoked, and cold-blooded and seeing it in a new light has made me re-evaluate steps I was taking. The first mistake in a series of bad mistakes. Forgiveness is beyond reach. Blame is a two-edged sword.
But that’s a little depressing and melodramatic!

I’ve rejoined the legions of World of Warcraft players.. damnit! Perf talking to me on MSN and Trina and family in real-life slowly wore down the barrier I had placed between the game and myself. I was absent for 2months though, long enough for some huge economy changes in my realm, so we’ll see how I go. My main goal is to get ready and familiar with the lay of the land for when Burning Crusade comes out, whenever it makes it out…

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